This is an article that I wrote for a magazine a while ago. I thought I’d share it with you.
Hekate , ancient Goddess of the Crossroads, older than Zeus, omnipresent in my life. The Goddess I hope I’m never without. Light and Darkness in equal measure and perfect balance. To me a true mother energy – respect Her, love Her, honour Her and She will encourage, protect and nurture you like no other…..cross Her at your peril. Written about for centuries and around the World. Inspiring new followers daily, encouraging her current followers constantly.
I was at the first ever Hekate Symposium in Glastonbury, when one of the speakers, Lezley Cunningham Wood uttered the sentences that are yet to leave me:
“ Hekate will always give you opportunities to fulfill your true potential. You may not take those opportunities, its up to you, but really, its best that you do.”
You see it is easy to stay small. Its far safer to keep your head below that parapet. These things make for a simpler life perhaps. But then, what sort of life would that be?
I had recently pushed myself out of another comfort zone, that of working as a solitary, and joined a group dedicated to Hekate. They needed a statue or painting as a focus. I thought to myself, no…you’re kidding me? You want me to do that? You want me to put my hand up to THAT? Putting my artwork in front of other devotees? I took a deep breath, resigned myself to my fate, hit “send” and the rest , as they say, is history.
I got the job of painting the Goddess Hekate for that group. It was the most challenging, rewarding and humbling experience. The connection I made with Her at that time is yet to leave me. There was the incredible time when she told me off for not listening to instructions about the colour of her dress, and whilst painting Her face she filled me with so much emotion that I wept. It was the most beautiful face I have ever seen and something I never, ever thought myself capable of. I truly painted that picture WITH Her. I felt her hand around mine as I crafted that image, all to Her specifications and craft it I did. I could feel the magic build with every brush stroke.
I continue to paint Her. Images come into my mind, or are given to me when I communicate with Her on the New Moons. It is always an honour to be crafting her image, and I only work with the information She gives me. Sometimes it will not make any sense until a long time after its finished– like the time a visitor pointed out the life in the Hekate mandala as well as the death, a detail that hadn’t become apparent to me before then, even though I’d kept looking at it, trying to see what else it was trying to tell me. The point is, she has shown me to trust in my own abilities. Art is so subjective, you either love an image or you don’t. It doesn’t necessarily have anything to do with the artist’s perceived skill. It can simply be that the image is one that resonates with the individual, or not. Hekate has taught me these things. She has shown me what I am capable of, and I will continue to be capable of, and its more than I ever could have imagined. Every time I do a painting I am stunned by what I can achieve. Please don’t think this is indicative of ego, simply lack of belief. I certainly don’t think I’m better at anything that anyone else. But that’s another lesson from Her – to be all that you can be. To be secure in yourself. To walk your own path, with confidence and strength. She may push you, oh but the YOU that you become!
It was at a local MBS that I met Paul from New Age Music Garden. I was meant to be there giving healing, but it had fallen through as my colleague couldn’t be there. I had just finished a course in teaching meditation and so I again pushed myself and offered my services for the workshop space. It paid off! I spent time with some wonderful people there who I am still in contact with, and I met Paul Landry, whose work you can see on his website.
Paul can still remember the moment I stood speechless as he asked me if I was interested in making some recordings of guided meditations? I remember wondering why I was being pushed so hard, at such an exhilarating rate, why couldn’t I just plod a LITTLE BIT? Challenge after challenge after challenge. But then I will never forget the first time She came to me , peering at me through the darkness. I shall see if you are worthy, she said. Prove yourself to me and we’ll talk. The relationship is never one way. That’s a fallacy. As with so much in Spirit, you show devotion and dedication to your relationship and it will build, and be so rewarding. Just like a friendship. You don’t expect to walk into someone’s house having only said hello in the street once do you? You don’t forget to show up to an arranged meeting and expect it to be OK. So I worked and I worked and I showed her that I wished to work with Her. So there I was, working again. Another challenge. Proving myself to her again. Lezley’s words spinning though my brain, while I dreamt of sitting under a duvet, and I agreed to look at it.
We started to discuss our plans. I realised rapidly how lucky I was to be working with such a talented musician and such a supportive colleague. Thank you again Hekate. I work with his music in my meditation group, and it truly has an existence and magic all of its own. It can fit into any guided visualisation, as if you have planned it so well to fit.
It became apparent to us both very quickly that whatever our plans were, She had others. And if I’m honest, I breathed a sigh of relief. She would be with me for our first project, and guide me, and guide the listener. The images that she wanted to convey came to me clearly, and although they might seem a little non conformist to general Hekate idealogy, they are as She wanted them, so I remain faithful they will be adored. After all , they are more Her work than mine. And guide us through the process She did. Through trials and errors, deadlines compromised and personal upheavals, She was there, keeping it safe, keeping us safe. She guided Paul too, working with his beautiful music, and keeping it to the time scale She required. No discs for the Symposium this year, it can be delivered there yes, but the discs….they’re for an event at Olympia.
And that’s something else people don’t always realise. Her sense of humour. Olympia? Oh good grief.