Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes….

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Autumn is such a beautiful time of year. That liminal time between the Summer and Winter, when the energy changes. Changes that are similar to those of Spring, but in reverse. Those energies are creating, these are destroying. This is the time of storms and winds, of leaves dancing around your feet as you walk and the imposing fogs late at night engulfing all in a veil of death. The first frosts and the birdsong fading. A time of transition as we head into the dark, cold, stillness of Winter.

I always see this time as a time of endings , but also of beginnings. It is said that the reason for the phrase fortnight, is because a new day was begun at dusk. Contained within Spring and Autumn are the points of balance of the two Equinox’s, the equal days and nights,  which reflect the focus of nights in their name. Using this reasoning I can see how it fits that Samhain, also known as Halloween, is seen as New Year. A view to rest and recuperate across Winter while the plans are made for the active , outdoors time of year.

So changes are afoot at HedgeRose. I am , for the first time in my quite long life, embarking on a degree. I am at University! That’s not something that I ever thought I’d be saying. It exciting and daunting in equal measure. A voyage of self discover too , as I’m taking a degree in counselling and as everybody knows, if you haven’t worked on your own stuff, you can’t begin to help another. Hard work academically and personally – bring it on!

More excitement comes in the form of official studio space at HazleHurst Studios in Runcorn. I am sharing with Claire the Doodologist and flower wrangler at CR Pitt designs. She even shares her coffee with me sometimes which is really saying something. I can think of no one else I’d rather share a room with. More artwork is heading Etsy’s way soon!

And, because that’s just not enough to be taking on board, I am also launching my online meditation group at Samhain. It is New Year after all! It struck me that a lot of people just can not physically get to a meditation group – and those are people who may be in need of it. Carers, Parents, people in stressful jobs with long hours, maybe away from home. They could all benefit from online recordings to listen to at a time that suits them, and an online group for support. I’m currently testing it out with a very helpful and lovely group of volunteers, so we will be ready for launch soon. 🙂




New Website!

I’m very excited to announce my new website.

It really is a dream come true! Sometimes its not easy to promote yourself, but with the wonderful numerical energy of 2017* , I decided that it was time.

I am so very blessed to be doing the work that I’m doing. I really love the fact that I get to spend such special time with people, and in such circumstances. And of course the fact that this kind of work is such a privilege. I am going to relish my opportunities.

More healing, more readings, more meditation, more workshops. More of the work that I love, meeting more of the wonderful people I share that time with. I will indulge my love of my artwork ( art college rejection means nothing folks!) and make more of my lovely incense. There is an exciting announcement coming soon too.

I am also excited to be starting a degree in September – so more study too! Yay!

I love this piece from Marianne Williamson:

Our Deepest Fear

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(* I’m no numerologist, but it is said that 2+0+1+7=10=1 so that this year is a year of beginnings. I like that thought, and it certainly feels that way to me)


Easter Energy

If you’re like me then on Christmas Eve you’ll feel the magic all around. I’m not Christian so for me it has nothing to do with joy at the birth of the Son ( I celebrate that at Yule and my Sun is spelt differently 🙂 ), and it has nothing to do with me thinking that Santa is coming down the chimney to bring me all those things that I had been hoping for, for sadly that sleighbell stopped chiming for me long ago. It may have something to do with the Sun beginning his ascent on the Horizon, and I think it has a lot to do with the Spirit of Mid Winter riding across the sky, playing his part in the Great Hunt. What I do think it has a lot to do with is collective consciousness. So many people , of varying ages, waiting expectantly.  The night will be magic, whether it is because those mince pies will be gone in the morning , or because those candles will be lit at midnight.

This collective consciousness also touches me at Easter. The Spring Equinox is often long gone with the moving dates of the weekend, but the energy of renewal is still all around us. With that in  mind sometimes its hard to acknowledge the deep dark sadness of Good Friday.


I always feel it. And I always revel in it. I feel a deep reverence for the sacrifice made, and the grief of His loved ones. I feel the collective grief pouring from the Christian mind. I sit in this stillness and I reflect.

What endings do I need to make, what sacrifices? What should I learn from this pause?

I feel it touch me and envelop me, and I stop, and I listen.


Then on Easter Sunday the energy is joyous. The voices from the Churches are happy and hopeful, and families gather together. Even if its simply a time of rest, the Sun is usually shining and the activity great. ( If you live where I live then there’s a definite gardening frenzy!) Love is all around.

This week in meditation group we are going to look at these two strong energies. The coming Full Moon has filled us with positivity , but with the planetary predictions for next week, the coming darkness will be a welcome time of introvertion, regrouping and rest. We will sit within that energy and imagine ourselves filled with the beauty of the night sky.

Then we will send LOVE and PEACE to all across the globe, without and within, to all who suffer, including ourselves.


What is Meditation?

What is meditation?

Meditation is active relaxation. It is a spell of time when you allow the body to be still but the mind is focussed. When you are meditating your mind may wonder but you recognise this and return it to your focus – be that observing your breath as it moves in and out of your body, a journey in a guided meditation, or a mantra. ( It can be a multitude of things) It allows you to observe your body and your mind, and a feeling of emotional stillness and energetic rejuvenation can follow.

What meditation is not.

Meditation is not something you do when you’re driving.  It is not when you sit and have a little bit of time relaxing with a cup of tea while your mind wonders over the days events. It isn’t listening to the birds and watching them flit about the feeder. It isn’t looking at your crystal collection. These are all things that I love to do – but they are not meditation. They are passive relaxation.

What meditation can do for you.

Regular meditation practice can improve your stress levels. It can give you a far stronger coping mechanism when times are tough. It can give you a healthy detachment from your emotional reactions – giving you the space to observe your emotions and understand  them rather than BE them. It can improve your focus and productivity in many areas of your life. It can help you to develop Spiritually. It can help you to think with clarity, wisdom and give you insight.

Again, what meditation is NOT.

Meditation is not a quick fix. It is a skill like any other that takes practise.

Meditation can give you so much , but you must be prepared to put in the time to help it along. It can allow issues to resurface too, maybe time for you to be aware of a physical ailment, but alongside that should be the strength to go forward with that issue – whether you feel that it is OK just to be aware of it, or feel you should get professional help. A lot of meditation is self awareness. Your body and mind may resist. A change in the status quo can be seen as dangerous by the subconscious, but please keep trying. It really is so, so worth it.

The Goddess Hekate

This is an article that I wrote for a magazine a while ago. I thought I’d share it with you.

Hekate , ancient Goddess of the Crossroads, older than Zeus, omnipresent in my life. The Goddess I hope I’m never without. Light and Darkness in equal measure and perfect balance. To me a true mother energy – respect Her, love Her, honour Her and She will encourage, protect and nurture you like no other…..cross Her at your peril. Written about for centuries and around the World. Inspiring new followers daily, encouraging her current followers constantly.

I was at the first ever Hekate Symposium in Glastonbury, when one of the speakers, Lezley Cunningham Wood uttered the sentences that are yet to leave me:

“ Hekate will always give you opportunities to fulfill your true potential. You may not take those opportunities, its up to you, but really, its best that you do.”

You see it is easy to stay small. Its far safer to keep your head below that parapet. These things make for a simpler life perhaps. But then, what sort of life would that be?

I had recently pushed myself out of another comfort zone, that of working as a solitary, and joined a group dedicated to Hekate. They needed a statue or painting as a focus. I thought to myself, no…you’re kidding me? You want me to do that? You want me to put my hand up to THAT? Putting my artwork in front of other devotees? I took a deep breath, resigned myself to my fate, hit “send” and the rest , as they say, is history.

I got the job of painting the Goddess Hekate for that group. It was the most challenging, rewarding and humbling experience. The connection I made with Her at that time is yet to leave me. There was the incredible time when she told me off for not listening to instructions about the colour of her dress, and whilst painting Her face she filled me with so much emotion that I wept. It was the most beautiful face I have ever seen and something I never, ever thought myself capable of. I truly painted that picture WITH Her. I felt her hand around mine as I crafted that image, all to Her specifications and craft it I did. I could feel the magic build with every brush stroke.

I continue to paint Her. Images come into my mind, or are given to me when I communicate with Her on the New Moons. It is always an honour to be crafting her image, and I only work with the information She gives me. Sometimes it will not make any sense until a long time after its finished– like the time a visitor pointed out the life in the Hekate mandala as well as the death, a detail that hadn’t become apparent to me before then, even though I’d kept looking at it, trying to see what else it was trying to tell me. The point is, she has shown me to trust in my own abilities. Art is so subjective, you either love an image or you don’t. It doesn’t necessarily have anything to do with the artist’s perceived skill. It can simply be that the image is one that resonates with the individual, or not. Hekate has taught me these things. She has shown me what I am capable of, and I will continue to be capable of, and its more than I ever could have imagined. Every time I do a painting I am stunned by what I can achieve. Please don’t think this is indicative of ego, simply lack of belief. I certainly don’t think I’m better at anything that anyone else. But that’s another lesson from Her – to be all that you can be. To be secure in yourself. To walk your own path, with confidence and strength. She may push you, oh but the YOU that you become!

It was at a local MBS that I met Paul from New Age Music Garden. I was meant to be there giving healing, but it had fallen through as my colleague couldn’t be there. I had just finished a course in teaching meditation and so I again pushed myself and offered my services for the workshop space. It paid off! I spent time with some wonderful people there who I am still in contact with, and I met Paul Landry, whose work you can see on his website.

Paul can still remember the moment I stood speechless as he asked me if I was interested in making some recordings of guided meditations? I remember wondering why I was being pushed so hard, at such an exhilarating rate, why couldn’t I just plod a LITTLE BIT? Challenge after challenge after challenge. But then I will never forget the first time She came to me , peering at me through the darkness. I shall see if you are worthy, she said. Prove yourself to me and we’ll talk. The relationship is never one way. That’s a fallacy. As with so much in Spirit, you show devotion and dedication to your relationship and it will build, and be so rewarding. Just like a friendship. You don’t expect to walk into someone’s house having only said hello in the street once do you? You don’t forget to show up to an arranged meeting and expect it to be OK. So I worked and I worked and I showed her that I wished to work with Her. So there I was, working again. Another challenge. Proving myself to her again. Lezley’s words spinning though my brain, while I dreamt of sitting under a duvet, and I agreed to look at it.

We started to discuss our plans. I realised rapidly how lucky I was to be working with such a talented musician and such a supportive colleague. Thank you again Hekate. I work with his music in my meditation group, and it truly has an existence and magic all of its own. It can fit into any guided visualisation, as if you have planned it so well to fit.

It became apparent to us both very quickly that whatever our plans were, She had others. And if I’m honest, I breathed a sigh of relief. She would be with me for our first project, and guide me, and guide the listener. The images that she wanted to convey came to me clearly, and although they might seem a little non conformist to general Hekate idealogy, they are as She wanted them, so I remain faithful they will be adored. After all , they are more Her work than mine. And guide us through the process She did. Through trials and errors, deadlines compromised and personal upheavals, She was there, keeping it safe, keeping us safe. She guided Paul too, working with his beautiful music, and keeping it to the time scale She required. No discs for the Symposium this year, it can be delivered there yes, but the discs….they’re for an event at Olympia.

And that’s something else people don’t always realise. Her sense of humour. Olympia? Oh good grief.


I am blessed enough to be able to foster hedgehogs for a local rescue centre. After they have been properly looked at by a fully trained rescuer, I am one of the lucky volunteers who get to either feed them up to a safe weight in Summer ( 650g) or in Winter, if they’re underweight, look after them as they hibernate. They live in hutches in the large shed that we have in the garden, which is suitable ’cause it has windows. They are then released back into the wild as soon as is safe and healthy for them.

Before I continue, please let me give some information about rescuing a hedgehog. If its out in the day, there will probably be an underlying issue that requires expert care. If its out of hibernation in the Winter, it will probably need help too. Please take it to a wildlife rescue centre. Proper instructions from the British Hedgehog Preservation Society are to be found here

Caring for them is a funny thing as I hardly have any interaction with them, as they’re wild and nocturnal, but can still tell different personalities. I still feel sad when they’ve gone, as well as a bit proud and I try not to worry! I have so far looked after Bridget, Haru, Victoria and George to name but a few. My favourite will always be Periwinkle, seen in the photo above, who was a furious little hog. She’d trash her hutch in a way that I’ve never seen before or since and I thought she was wonderful. She ate me out of house and home. But then she lost all her weight again in the middle of her hibernation and had to be rushed back to the rescue centre to be popped in a warm place so she’d wake up and feed. She did, put on good weight, and was released in the Spring. A happy ending for my little friend.

Sadly hedgehogs are in real trouble and statistics threaten extinction within 10 years if more is not done. A leaflet is about them is available here which also contains information on what we can all do to help. If you don’t have a garden, or time to make changes to it, maybe you’d consider making a donation to a local rescue centre? They are usually staffed by volunteers who are giving their own time, space and funds to care for the hedgehogs.  There is also information about Hedgehog Street here which is a great scheme.

I’m currently having a little break. The last two residents are being released last minute as its not too cold yet, and when another two are well enough and have finished their medicines, my hutch will be full again for the Winter. Think of us all shivering in our sheds! Personally I can’t wait!



I work with an energy called Shamballa Multi Dimensional Healing. Its called multi dimensional because it works on so many levels – physical, emotional, karmic and auric. It is a hands on channelling of Divine energy and said to be an extension of the Reiki energy.

Reiki was given to us via the ascended master St Germaine and Dr Usui at the turn of the last century. He then spread the word across the world and most people have now heard of this form of healing. Shamballa was first channelled by John Armitage in 1996 and is similar in that it is hands on healing but we work with a larger team of masters and symbols.

If you come to me for healing you have a very simple job – and that’s to be open and to relax. I say to my clients that all they have to do is lie there and enjoy it. (Sounds like a very different type of client lol!) In the training notes it says that as the healer I should encourage people to talk but I disagree. Until I am a trained counsellor thats exactly what I shouldn’t do – but I am always ready to listen to anything people wish to share, and I am always honoured when people share their stories and feelings with me.

One of the many reasons I love to work with this energy is that people don’t have to open up which means its accessible to everyone. Shamballa MD Healing works on so many levels that the team in Spirit send the precise healing energy required by each person. I don’t need to know anything about them for them to still get the optimum benefit from the energy. In these days of stress and distress I love the way I can offer that to people.

I’m not a trained counsellor ( I hope to be one day) but I hope the healing I offer gives people the strength to go and get any professional help they may need. I’m not a GP so I would never offer a diagnosis of any kind, but I hope after their session the healee feels the necessary connection with their body to go and get any help they require. What I do know is that people come back to me saying how much better they feel, how much pain has dissipated and how much more able they are to cope emotionally and this is wonderful. It is such an honour to be able to pass this energy to people and spend time with folks working this way.

The Healing Room at HedgeRose: